This is my now...

Many may not know this but I've been suffering from mild depression for sometime now and yeah I'm coming into the light about this issue of mine.

But at the meantime I'm proud to say that I'm slowly overcoming this problem and I see my life in a more positive way now. Thanks to help from friends who help me realize all this and now finally I'll be able to slowly pick up where I left my studies and friends and most importantly life.

Sad to say, I've done some things to hurt myself before (yeap, I was that screwed up) and I'm no proud of it. But definitely I would say I learned from all the things that has happened to me before this and I love the way I am now, loving and accepting all my positive traits and imperfections.

Being 20 do help me realize certain things in life and I'm proud that it happened. (Hahaha yeah making a big fuss about being 20!)

I really don't know how to express myself but all I can say, I think the bubbly and happy-go-lucky Lynzie is coming back. No more tears and fears all the time.

There's this song from the recent American Idol where Jordin Sparks won and it became her first single. The lyrics are great and I think it does portray my current situation. Very inspiring. Take a listen from my page's Random Bits. Here are the lyrics to the songs that I will leave you to ponder on....

"This Is My Now"
by Jordin Sparks
(American Idol 6)

There was a time I packed my dreams away
Living in a shell, hiding from myself.
There was a time when I was so afraid

I thought I’d reached the end.
Baby, that was then.
But I am made of more than my yesterdays.

This is my now,

And I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can’t believe the love I see.

My fear’s behind me,
Gone are the shadows and doubt.
That was then.
This is my now.

I had to decide.
Was I gonna play it safe?
Or look somewhere deep inside,
Try to turn the tide.
Find the strength to take that step of faith?

This is my now,

And I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can’t believe the love I see.

My fear’s behind me,
Gone are the shadows and doubt.
That was then.
This is my now.

I have a courage like never before, yeah.
I settled for less, but I’m ready for more.

Ready for more…

This is my now,
And I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can’t believe the love I see.

My fear’s behind me,
Gone are the shadows and doubt.
That was then.
This is my now,

And I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can’t believe the love I see.

My fear’s behind me,
Gone are the shadows and doubt.
That was then.

This is my now.
This is my now.

A small achievement....

Bwahahaha, Lynzie's feeling very contented...=D

She marched into the kitchen today and decided to make dessert for everyone...and she chose to make....CARMELLE.

It's a pudding like dessert that you can always see Doreamon and Nobita eating in the comic.

So who wants to try? Mom and Dad including the Disaster (my bro) gave two thumbs up....=)

Pissed off up to an unrecognisable level.

OMG, I am pissed up to an unrecognisable level. Today was the first time in my life that I actually walked out from a classroom during lecture.

Call me emo but imagine being in the class where 85% from 99 people in the are busy broadcasting their lives while the lecturer was lecturing. The class was like one bee hive only 100 times worst.

Ugh, oh the headaches getting to me now. Class ending in another hour.

Charmed and a little bit conned-ish on a Wednesday.

Ahhh~ it was raining....the alarm was going off at 5.45am. Hrm...place it into snooze and the next moment I heard my mom screaming "OI, don't need go Uni izzit?"

Damn, sweet sweet sleep interrupted. Zombiefied...woke up...run the usual morning routine and headed off to Uni.

Traffic was congested today, well it was raining and it's Malaysia...DUH!

Class was great with Ms. Ilma but with no caffeine fix in the morn. I wasn't giving 100% in class. But still, 10.30am came and school is now off-session. Hahahaha. Was crapping with Cammy & Ed when Ryo messaged and said it's movie day. Teehee.

Waited till 2.30pm then we met up at 1U. Most of the movies this week is either we've watched it or we would die from boredom watching it. So we picked this Japanese horror flick, "Apartment 1303".



Aduhai, I thought I will be quite freaked out but ended up the whole horror movie became a comedy. Alrighty there Mr. Director, your horror flick just got turned into a laughing stock by around 2 dozens of young Malaysian today.

I find it more like an alien invasion thingy towards the end rather than horror and the supposedly scary moment were so fast I was like "what happened". I think if *ehem* lecturer Dr....*whoops* Mr. Beh sees this film he is going to due that bloody director for coming out with such a piece of work. Hahaha.

Before movie, lunch was in the itinerary. But that was also after balls whacking session at the batting cages. OMG, I suck today. Cannot even hit one ball. So memalukan. Ryo pulak syiok-syiok 45 balls whacking all the way. He's learning fast. Hahaha.

Oh yeah talking about lunch, we went to CHARMS. For me it's again! hehehe. This time we ordered the thing that I nampak when I first visited, the Lamb Charmers. *Drooling all over keyboard*

I also tried the glutinous rice ball in soya bean...It was not bad but I think the they use the glutinous balls from the supermarket packaging.

The lamb charmers and rice ~! YUMM

-Couldn't get a nice angle....the nice angle was with Ryo- XD

-The glutinous rice ball in soya milk-

Tarot Reading for today.

Recently got myself a facebook account and added the Tarot cards application to my page. Call me superstitious but what it says for me today does make me even more certain about the action I'm about to take.

Strength

Strength is a card of courage, determination and inner might. You are in a position to deal with whatever comes your way. You have reached a position of influence and no longer need to force your beliefs upon others. You are aware of the temptations that exist, but your ability to resist them is strong. Be careful not to take advantage of your power or risk becoming abusive and destructive. Listen to your inner voice and trust your instincts.

The card of strength from the deck.

A typical Monday morning....

Damn, it's another Monday in a blink of an eye and I'm in the 2nd week of my new semester. 6 more week to go till another moment where my intelligence will be tested.

Was suppose to be up as early as 5am this morning, but oh why must it rain?

It was so bloody warm and cozy being under my sheets. Wished I could sleep longer. Well, I did wake up one hour after my alarm went off. Sis will be cursing me when I get home later for letting my phone snooze for one hour. *whoops*

Will be having an impromptu speech presentation later on. Hope I won't get some crappy topic like CPR or I'm so going to kill myself.

Oh yeah, and did I mentioned that I lost a for-all-the-wrong-reasons bet to Mr Kelvin Goh Wong? Ch***** S**t. Was betting see who will get a lower grade for our Comm Theories paper. Thinking about it.... I think i did blog this in my last entry.

Hrm feeling a little contented as well. Kevin was able to get the Army of Three of CD from his church for me. So nice of him. Thanks a heap man! I'm like so hypnotised by their piece "Blind Me to See". Been sometime since I last listened to Campur Charts so basically I don't know how are they doing in the countdown.

At the same time, this morning I gave something some really serious thought. I guess this action I'm about to take may hurt somebody and as well it kind of will end my passion to bring happiness and help to those who need. But I believe I can always help in other ways. I realised that I haven't been really happy ever since being involved in this place. I'm always being troubled by how people think of me and the fact that I couldn't take a firm stand and need "you" to back me up. I also saw how this place sort of took the life out of "you" and I really do not wish the same to happen to me. Maybe I'm just not as good as "you" think I am and am sorry if I ever gave "you" the hope I can be like "you".

All I know now is I want to focus on being more successful in my studies and rebuilt my confidence through my passion in music and photography. Call me selfish or coward-ish but I think this may the best. I may lost the friendship that we built for sometime now but I really am sorry. I may be thinking too much. "You" can be very forgiving at times but still.....

For all the actions I'n about to take, I will see someone that's important and he's been like a real big brother to me for advice. I'll see what he says and from then on we'll see how things goes but most probably I'm going with my guts. Again, I may regret this action I'm about to take but it's a risk I just got to take.

The start of the semester and free movies...well not entirely.

Been avidly blogging these days. Well what to do? Realized that blogspot.com is much more funner. =P

Hrms, it is Saturday and time to review what has been going on for the past few days since class started on Tuesday.

I will be sitting for only 2 papers this semester. Public Speaking and Multimedia Design & Application. Well, trying to be not so confident first but if I really put much effort into this semester I guess I have a wobbly not too steady yet A in my hand. That comes from Public Speaking.

Not too sure about Multimedia D&A but as I said earlier efforts and hardwork will definitely pay off at the end I assume.

Lecturer's are great except for the part-time MDA lecturer from MMU. He reminds me of Mr.Ben lar his style but he does have a way to make the class keep quite though. But still having 4 straight hours of lecture with him every week is going to be super agonizing because he is one *boring* human being.

It was great also meeting back friends after 3 weeks on holidays. Almost everyone who's anyone changed their hairstyle. Especially the girls. Most of them chopped of their long locks, except for Little Princess Wendy who got extensions at RM 8 per stroke of hair and had 80 strokes weaved onto her head. a RM 640 hair-do. *stunned & speechless*

Results were to released this week. Found out that I maintained my not-too-proud-off-but-still-considered-okay cumulative great point average of 3.0. Even happier to know that I got "B" for communications theories paper and the most bangga off now is that i aced (minus) my copywriting paper. Well I guess all that ejek-ing and going banana's class with Mr.Zachary was worth while after all. Oh yeah and talking about scoring a "B" in comm theories paper. I lost my bet to macha Kelvin. *dang*. We were betting for all the wrong reasons. Well the bet goes like this; "whoever that scores lowest for this subject wins and the loser will belanja the one that is with the lower grade to good food EG: tony roma's or italiannies". See for all the wrong reasons. HAHAHA. So I lost as Kelv scored well lower than me lar.

Oh yeah not forgetting, EuJeen & Carmen also brought me out to celebrate my belated birthday.*hahaha, told you people I'm entitled to one month of celebration* So we went lepak-ing at 1U. Didn't do anything much because erm that's not much we can do at 1U. We had AJISEN RAMEN for lunch and the funniest thing happened.

EuJeen's lunch set came with a Miso soup and Car insisted that she wants it and so EuJeen being the gentleman that he always is, slighty lifted the cup of Miso to Car's direction, but don't know what happen, it slipped, the cup of Miso went splashing across the table and *shitz* most of the Miso kena my pair of jeans. But still i don't know why i laughed it off and went around 1U smelling a lil Miso-ee. Hehehehe. Most of the time that day we were either laughing till we can't function properly or laughed until we choked on our drinks. This is mainly thanks to that encik EuJeen.

Yesterday, was a day of food and free movie...not entirely though. Hahaha.

Edmond got this coupon thingy and it's entitled to 2 free movie passes. So me, Edmond, Camilla and Hui Jun went to 1U to catch "I now pronounced you Chuck & Larry". A compelling tale of a great friendship & gayism. Supposedly to be real funny but I find it okay only. Movie was at 4.30pm but we were there like 1pm. So lunch was on the program. Haha.

We tried CHARMS that is located on the Skybridge there near Plastic & FOS. As per usual if Edmond bring go makan, he'll order all the good good stuff and we'll be all "Ed, you better order things you want to eat and no extra coz we're not gonna help you finished it" but usually it doesn't work as we ended up sharing each others food and finish everything.

My choice! - stir fried chee cheong fun- YUMM~!

My 2nd caffeinne fix for the day - a kow cup of Vietnamese coffee-

Something Ed ordered, dunno wat zit called but it was nice.

Everyone's Fave - Papadoms-

One plate of abomination - camilla's plate of kam-hiong squid head rice-

After movie finish, met up with Ryo help him capture some pics that he needed for something he's working on. I hope I captured what he wanted?

Brought him up to the upper roof to capture what he needed, then he never knew that there was a batting cage in 1U so we went to batting cages also. This time I never play but Ryo had great time whacking away those balls lar. And yes I admit, he's better than me though it was his first time playing.

After that, just went jalan-jalan a bit & dinner. Joined back my friends at Tempure King after Ryo left. I didn't have my dinner though because I can still taste the chee cheong fun even after so many hours then. Not long after that we also left 1U..been there the whole day already. Tired-ness but still i made time to yamchar with my friends and update each other about the week. Lil boy -Z- didn't join us due to assignments but Aaron, Convey, EuJin and later on, Hendry joined the session unexpectedly.

It's 4 minutes to 12pm. It's a slow start to the day but not expecting much from today after a whole week of great time with people around me. =D

Two nuts celebrated their belated birthdays...XD

Well after a swell weekend (Aiyor..sound so little girl using the word "swell" but anyways) the following week proceeded as well as the weekend.

On Monday night, Me and my another bestie, Parvathy went and celebrate our birthday at THE HIDE, Menjalara here. It was public holidays due to raya so both of us no uni neither work so there goes the idea of syiok sendiri punya birthday celebration. Both of us are just born 6 days apart.

Went and fetch Paru (Parvathy's nick, dun ask why it's lungs) first then just went and bought ourselves a cake and then to hunk heaven *ehem*...THE HIDE.

(damn, that dude wasn't there...=P)

Hrm, we ordered the mocktails and a plate of fried squid. I know, it's abomination right? Eating my own kind, but still...hehehe it taste great.

Mine's Orange Passion & ME while the other one is Paru's Green Fairy

The abomination plate of sotong and our mocktails.

My mocktail was okay only because it was super sweet. I still got my sweet-tooth but don't too fancy sweet drinks. Chocolate is always the best sweet. Hehehe. Paru's green fairy was nicer though she complain about the vanilla ice-cream at the top.

Chit-chat until so nice and busy taking nonsense pics of ourselves until I was interrupted by some unwanted individual through the phone. Regretted picking up that call. Made me cry during a celebration. But Paru was there to make things better. I think i should really work on my selective listening.

But anyways, we cut our cake and we both got one candle to wish on. I wished again yet for something very simple. Hehehee. Try thinking whether did it came true or not? =D

Because the cake we bought was quite small and because it got all hardened when the restaurant staff placed it in the fridge for us, we decided to just dig in the cake with our spoons.

I know. Lazy and out of our mind right? I figured. Hahaha.

Left THE HIDE, around 11pm and then hang at Paru's place until around 1am hahahaha we haven't have a chat session like this since forever. We talked about everything!

Taken without warning. Paru say look like Vanness from F4. What?!

Caught committing abomination. Was squid-eating.

The drink is so sweet.

Paru & Cake

Cake & I

That night's main attraction.

My giler can't wait to makan face.

The syiok-sendiri fellas.

Please excuse the mess. The cake was so hard that we just use our spoons and dig thus resulted in the crumbs.

Hahaha. All in all a great birthday celebration with Paru. =D

Absolute Sunday =D

It was a wonderful Sunday. Hahaha. It was a fun day hanging out with the family.

The morning started off late because of me. I was sleeping up until 10.30am. Hahaha. My sis need to like sort of show her pissed look just to get me off bed. Then the whole fam went to Taman Tun Makbul for breakfast. Ugh but I was a bit sien with the food because again it was mamak food. Bored and it's very oily. But i ended up opting for nasi goreng daging and didn't finish everything.

Then, went to The Curve jalan-jalan a bit and guess what I stumbled upon?

Gil Ofarim's THE ALBUM at Rock Records selling for only RM 5. OMG! I think i actually squeaked that a few people in the store was looking at me. Hehehe well didn't even think twice I bought the CD. I was begging Aaron most of the time to go find back that CD for me but now don't need already! I have my own. Songs like "U&I" and "Everytime" just brings back good memories.

Gil Ofarim's THE ALBUM released year 2000

After that, I bought a book also. The fourth installment of the chic lit I'm chasing "the seven deadly sins". Now I'll get to know what happened after Beth and Adam was forced to break up by Harper and Kane in the previous book. Whoops getting a little book wormy here. =P

Then just now, we also went to Tony Roma's for dinner. YUMM~! I had ribs. It was great. The sauce...it's mama mia! Hahaha. Well its a dinner to celebrate my sis and mom and my birthday because the three of us share the same birthday month and are just few days apart. We ordered so much food but were able to finish. I still love the onion loaf. Its great but for the mean time its a little too oily for me still. My stomach cannot take such oily food these days. But again still, as I'm a crazy for food person, I still ate it and now...suffering a bit from gastric.

Mum & Dad

My younger bro smiling like a stoopid fella as usual. haha XD

My sis who can't wait to dig into her pasta. Already attacking the garlic beard. =P

Okay, I admit it, I was literally attacking the ribs like no one's business.

Nice plate of robs and grilled prawns....Mine all Mine

The aftermath...terus coma after the meal.

My sis's YUMM~YUMM of a pasta.

Me & Me Sis...after the meal and before the coma. Hahaha

Ahhh~

Oh yeah yesterday was also at 1u with my nanny...hahah Suresh. We went to the batting cages and i totally humiliated myself but at the same time I was able to hit 3 out of 15 balls coming to me at 40miles/hour. It's an achievement. Then went for a movie; The Seeker and then off for yamchar session with -Z- till 12.30am.


The movie was alright. Very typical fantasy good versus evil story but not bad.

Again, so far being 20 is great. Now I'm just waiting for that tattoo. HeeHee.

Turned the big 20 and lovin' it.

Its exactly 24 hours since i turned 20. Time check!

Yeap it's 24 hours alright....Me born 7.45am. Hehehehe.

Well it's only been 24 hours but so far I'm loving it being 20 and one of my wishes even came true. I'm not about to spill it right? Then all the magic will go away. I'm not about to spoil it. I'm starting my year off quite great.

Erm celebration, not much but i gave myself a RM160 present. Drove my sis and I to the salon and REBONDING time. Erm the hair ok? Me and my sis cukup bonding ever since I was born. Hahaha.

My new look for my 20th birthday...haha =D

Also, my uni mates threw me a small celebration, STEAMBOAT session....YUMM~! (sorry guys no pic ler). Later when I got from my mates then I'll upload again. They bought me a Devil. Red one. Well Alvin insisted that he chose the present especially for me so....Thanks Macha~! But thanks to the rest of you for making the celebration more fun by just being there.

Mucho Gracias guys...Love em presents you gave me. xoxo

Hahaha, also not forgetting are those who wished me once the clock strike 12am on 11th October. Well Weng Keong stayed up just to wish me. Thanks. And of course also hearing
from friends that I have long time tak dengar from them.

All in all....friends & family. You guys made the transition from being a teen to being an almost adult happy for me. Thanks a lot. Heart you all.

It's Your Birthday

(originally posted on http://phuiyhin26.multiply.com on sept 15th 2007)

Today marks September 15th. The birthday of a very good friend who's now in a happier place. May your life be always as beautiful as you said it is.

In Loving Memory of
Shawn Yap Swee Kee
(1987-2006)

~Missing you~

nothing but sweet memories

(originally posted on http://phuiyhin26.multiply.com on sept 3rd 2007)

was browsing through friends that will be celebrating their birthday this month on friendster and stumble upon this person.

he goes by the name of Shawn Yap Swee Kee. It's funny that his friendster is still being updated from time to time. I think Ling is doing it for him. I don't know but suddenly all the memories of him flowed in and I can't stop my eyes from tearing.

How dumb of me. I shouldn't be crying for I know now he's at a better place now.

Going through all the testimonials i left on his friendster. haihz~ miss those moments when we use to tease each other and competing saying who is better than who and who reads more books....

I guess i took him for granted....and now it's kinda late to say I'm sorry.

U lived life to the fullest my friend and I will try to learn from u and see life beautifully.....~

Physically not around

(originally posted on http://phuiyhin26.multiply.com on Aug 31st 2007)

Ahhh~

Well today marks one week after another very successful organisation of KL Central, Southern Cross & Bukit Kiara and Triang Leos joint project, MYLC (Mind Your Language Camp).

According to my blog title, yes...I am still very spiritually stuck at Triang and at the camp site cause i'm missing all the participants and as well as all the fun that we had there. Mentang-mentang my life is all about having fun. hehehehe

Yesterday was Merdeka eve and the bunch of us went and celebrate our country's Golden Jubilee celebration @ Ikano. The place was crowded but not as crowded as I thought it will be and according to everyone, everyone is at either Dataran Merdeka or Putrajaya. But nevermind-lar . Janji got fireworks can already. I got some videos through my handphone but it's freaking blur. (ehem, well i have no dough to buy myself a camera phone that goes by megapixels...=P)

Oh yeah, the bunch of us was Me, Boon, Becca, Sumin, Willz, Alan, Lawrence, Nelson, Danny, Derrick, Wei Jian, Kelvin and the dood in the Red that i forget his name. Not forgetting Ivan and his GF, Suki.

As per usual i got teased most of the night, but this time Sumin kena also. Kesian the both of us....hahaha but nevermind, with them...numb already.

Hrm, exams are coming in another 11-days. *SHITZ*

check out my albums for my pics and videos....

The Slump awakens...actually....

(originally posted on http://phuiyhin26.multiply.com on Aug 21st 2007)

The Slump (ME) awakens......hahahaha actually I'm deprived of SLEEP!
Everybody's favorite word and every girl's essential but then I don't get to experience it.

Tonight will be the last time in this semester that I will need to burn the midnight oil to finish up assignments. I'm done with my copywriting assignment...not the best but still presentable and my dreamweaver for website...GUNG HO-ing on it but then chill for a moment to blog a bit-lar

Well nothing much lately, but the "tak boleh tahan" me committed a sin today.

Okay, I confess.....I....I....I....bought a pair of heels today.
There you go...I said it. *Phew* Lega- to get it out of my chest.
I wanted to buy back the exact same one from the Utar Ball but then no size already. I guess that was actually a sign to ask me to go home, but instead another pair caught my attention and there you go. I sinned.

Today, I was being a real pest also especially to my broadcasting lecture, Mr. Beh *ehem* Dr. Beh in the making.I also don't why suddenly I called him Dr.......-_-'''

Camilla said I was down on caffeine...maybe that's true...I didn't take any coffee this morning. Oh Lord, look at me. I'm pathetic without coffee thus thanks to god for inventing such a wonderful plant. hahaha I just thought of something. I got DE-CAFFED today.....hahahaha *cold joke*

(*a moment of silence*).......

whoopzie look at the time, it's 12.36am now. Gotta go take at what my "horror"-scope says and then it's back to dreamweaver.

Till then, this is where i sign off...

Hasta La Baybey~!

Decisions & Self-control

(originally posted on http://phuiyhin26.multiply.com on Aug 17th 2007)

It's 7.28am. Just woke up and headed straight for Dad's laptop and start working on the website assignment. Getting very "in-touch" with the software so very "into" it right now. Hehehe.

Today, I'm spoilt with choices. Well I have 2 events which i can choose to go for and from yesterday night till now, I've been thinking left and right. Leo Joint Install or.....Integrity Club Meeting ( * yup it triggers every single emotions that leads to boredom* ). But looking at the fact that one requires me to pay RM 18 while the other is my obligation and I need not fork out a single cent for it. Hrm...well I think.....I think.....

Hahaha, think I'll skip the Joint Install. I'm going to be alone anyways....and thus it actually brings much sadness to know that my club is not doing enough fellowshipping around. Urgh suddenly despite the fact I need to pay, I feel like going for Joint Install.......

Decisions...Decision....

I don't know whether people realise or not but these days, I'm really emo?

Kejap-kejap mau mati, kejap-kejap happy...damn confusing and sometimes it even makes me hate myself.

I guess -Z- and Suresh; these two best friends of mine, sure have a tough time figuring how to handle me, eventhough, they will still be able to make me crack and my mood will at least change for the better..a lil. Thanks a lot to these two donkeys-lar.

And thus, because of this, I somehow need to get in control with my emotions and show "them" who's the boss of me. Well got to learn to love myself then only can go and love others...right?

hehehe *hugs* myself.

Yesterday night, or actually this morning, 5 of us (me, -z-, suresh, alson, foo) was hanging out at McD and as per usual I'm d only girl hanging out with the boys. It was our weekly yamchar session just that this week instead of tea or booze...it was bottomless flow of soft drinks. But for me it was coffee all the way.

We were playing some card games and I lost a few rounds, and supposedly they wanted me to do something ( I think it was going down the slide in McD) and you know-lar the usually wimpy and dare-not-take-a-chance me don't dare to do it. Hehehe but then, they were nice enough to not force me into doing it.

Later when Foo came along, they played CHOR DAI DI - Alson style, where losers got to pick a girl and approach them to talk to them. I was not in the game...OBVIOUSLY!!! hahaha and -Z- lost the game. He was so stress upon approaching the girls but he took up the courage hehehe and got rejected. Funny to see his expression before he went and talk to the girls. And so the sessions prolonged until 2 something with the taikors (Alson & Suresh) giving tips to -Z- on how to pick up girls and then we went back.

Anyways, it's 7 minutes to 8am and it's time for me to go get ready and force my ass off to uni and attend the Integrity meeting.

Till my next entry....

Damsel in Distress and totally hating it~

(originally posted on http://phuiyhin26.multiply.com on Aug 16th 2007)

OMG...i'm like going through a very tough time in my life!

Houren just informed me that my msn messenger account might just been hacked.

(ppl please excuse as I'm about to curse for the worst time in my 20 years of LIFE)

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD THESE DAYS!

WHAT DO I HAVE AGAINST YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT DRIVES YOU TO TORTURE ME THIS WAY?!


1ST MY LAPTOP

NOW....MY ACCOUNT BEING HACKED?!

WHAT DID I DO?

SERIOUSLY!

TELL ME!

I REALLY WANNA KNOW!

Gross

(originally posted on http://phuiyhin26.multiply.com on Aug 16th 2007)

Damn I can't help it but to quickly blog about this.

When i was on my way home driving just now, i pass this dood which was picking his mouth (with a toothpick of course!) while driving a motorbike.

OMG, it was so gross and so visual....EWW!
He was also driving so slow that i almost knocked him.

GOD people, do your picking somewhere else.

A nice Week-N

(originally posted on http://phuiyhin26.multiply.com on Aug 12th 2007)

Ahh~

It was a nice week-n after an agonizing 2-weeks battling with my rollercoaster running emotions.

Actually it wasn't such a good start to the week-n with the fact that friday night was all spoilt because the planning of the camp ain't going as well as it was suppose to be. Many documents were lost due to my "sotong"-ness...so guys..am soree okay for making things hard for you all.

That night if the meeting did not run for so long, was suppose to catch a movie with Ryo so instead we scheduled for the next day.

Movie on saturday was @ 5.30pm. Watched Rush Hour 3. Ugh I did not expect it to be so blardy predictable but it was like even before the story reach the climax, i already know what's the ending. It's the usual, bad guy pretend to be good guy and then die at the end of the story kinda movie. No emphasization on the storyline, plainly sellingJackie Chan's stunts and Chris Tucker's humor. Nothing more than that.

*from one of the scenes where they were in a cab who the taxi driver thinks he's an undercover spy*

But one thing that happened during the movie session that ticks me off the most was some stupid kids kicking and commenting throughout the whole movie and the fact that families bring in their kid-babies into the cinema and they (the kids) cannot stop talking. I don't blame the kids though, they are in their growing years and so talking and being inquisitive is their nature but come on lar parentals...you should know well enough that your kids are gonna be like that even they are angels to you and what you did most probably totally spoiled others' movie session.

After that, we both headed to Italiannies for dinner coz Chili's were just too crowded. Gotta wait for 1/2 hour and my stomach just said "get a move on to somewhere else". hahaha. We ordered pasta *YUMM* i ordered something i don't know how to pronounce and i don't know what Ryo ordered but both taste great...hrms...talking about it makes me drool again. I just love pasta. Might just ship myself off to Italy one day and never come back......

Later that night, went to Laundry with -Z- ans Suresh and minum....a twist to our weekly "tea" session this week. Then as per usual we were discussing about lots of things those from the past and from present.

This week-n I could say can be a start to a good week (hopefully)..hehehe.

Dei

(originally posted on http://phuiyhin26.multiply.com on Aug 9th 2007)


Okay, been blogging more often lately as you can see. Well that's all i wanna do ryte now. I just wanna write and write and write and not stop. But then...brain freeze. (Damn, very self contradicting lor) Really don't know what i want.


Today, everything was just okay. At least i'm not as crappy as last night..crying while chatting with -Z- and Suresh. While msn-ing the tears keep flowing down. Never cried so much in my life before.

Maybe what Vincent say is true. I'm always bottling things inside. Never know the right channel to lepas. But you see, I'm afraid that if I show my true feelings, at times people will think I'm weak. I never like that feeling. I need to be in full control of myself. I need be independent and strong.

But i guess I've finally cracked...cracked for good.

Jst now when macha kelvin and Ryo as me about hw I'm feeling. Just explaining a bit also mood terus change already. Sad. I don't want to be like this.

OMG..Total Squid!!!

(originally posted on http://phuiyhin26.multiply.com on Aug 8th 2007)

I'm totally squid!!!!...can you believe it? that i actually put the wrong date for my birthday in my job application for the student assistant...i put 10th Oct instead of 11th.

Hehehe...nasib baik Ryo saw my application and came out and told me...I'm like...OH SHIT!!! rush back into Myer's room and change quickly.

OMG..i got the curse of the squid.......sad nyer...

but then...to make me feel a lil better...i went shopping alone....again something i do quite often that people feel so sad for me lar...go where also alone. What to do...my friends have other commitments also....

good turnout....i bought myself a shirt at 50% discount so it was only RM 30..well hopefully something to go with that new skirt i bought weeks ago....oh yeah now i remember...i g2 fix my shoes 1st..the ribbons coming off...so mite as well just take the whole thing off...if not will try 2 find a way to save it...hehehe

till my next entry...

cold treatment

(originally posted on http://phuiyhin26.multiply.com on Aug 5th 2007)

Remember i was saying I'm getting the cold treatment?
I visited Uncle John's blog and he posted something on this:

Cold Shoulder

Deliberate coldness or disregard or a slight snub.
For example, When I said hello to her in the library, she gave me the cold shoulder and walked away; He's been very cold to me lately [OR] He's been giving me the cold shoulder lately.
This term, which first appeared in writings by Sir Walter Scott - [Early 1800s]

(SOURCE: http://www.answers.com [ONLINE], 31st July 2007)
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Cold shoulder, silent treatment do more harm than good

Cold shoulder, Silent treatment = Ostracism

Ostracism is more powerful now than ever because people have fewer strong family and friend support systems to fall back on when faced with exclusion in relationships, the workplace. "The effects of ostracism are a health concern," says Kipling Williams, professor of psychological sciences who researches ostracism. "Excluding and ignoring people, such as giving them the cold shoulder or silent treatment, are used to punish or manipulate, and people may not realize the emotional or physical harm that is being done. Some purposely hurt others by not inviting them to a party or ignoring them at work, and others may not even realize they are ostracizing someone when they ignore a new temporary employee or a friend after a disagreement.

In the past, people who were ostracized at work or by a friend could seek support and control through another significant relationship. But because people report growing more distant from extended family and relying on fewer close friendships, they might lack the support to deal with ostracism.

Ostracism is one of the most widely used forms of social punishment, and some see it as more humane than corporal punishment, as when used in a time-out, but there is a deeper psychological impact that needs to be taken seriously. When people are ostracized, it can affect their perceptions, physiological conditions, attitude and behavior - all of which sometimes can lead to aggression.

Although sometimes ostracism is unintentional, there are people who use ostracism as a tool to gain control of a situation.

Ostracism is powerful because you can get away with them. If people are physically or verbally abusive, they can be punished. But it's hard to punish someone for not making eye contact or ignoring another person. If the person is confronted by asking, 'Why are you not talking to me?,'or 'Why have you been avoiding me lately?' the person can easily deny the accusation.



SOURCE: Kipling Williams, (765) 494-0845, kip@psych.purdue.edu


ALL THIS WAS PICKED FROM UNCLE JOHN'S (FROM LOCAL BAND AUNTY MABLE'S )BLOG. You can visit the blog @ http://nesanclc.blogspot.com/

Thanks Uncle John, i kinda needed to read something about this ryte now.